I came to know the Lord as a teenager but fell away from Him many times thereafter. Not until I became an adult did I truly realize that the Lord loved me in spite of my failures and shortcomings.
He showed me this through a series of events I went through as a young wife and mother.
There was a time in my life, when my two children were very young, that I was literally afraid to go out doors or even drive my car for that matter- every time I would attempt to go out, it seemed like the streets would close in on me and it was just too much for me bear. Not only that, there were times I would be sitting at the dinner table eating supper, and all of the sudden I would not be able to breathe, my husband would rush me to the hospital only for them to tell me I’d be ok and give me a bag to breath in.
This went on for seven years…
One day I was in the house cleaning and I heard the voice of God say, “If you serve me I will heal you. I was so shocked!!! I KNEW I heard HIS voice, but I never thought it was truly possible. So I asked my husband, “Does God really SPEAK to people? His reply was, “Yes, if you believe…” I had stopped going to church because I was afraid to drive but that day I decided I was going to believe God and drive- I have been driving ever since, that was over 35 years ago! I know that I struggled with a serious form of agoraphobia- an anxiety disorder characterized by anxiety in situations where the sufferer perceives the environment to be dangerous, uncomfortable, or unsafe. (Wikipedia) Combined with severe anxiety attacks- this combination of symptoms would not be easy to recover from on my own, without medical intervention and especially instantaneously. I believed God that day, He healed me and I have been living thankful to Him ever since!
That was over 35 years ago and one of the hardest times in my life, but God is so faithful and I realized without a doubt that he has a plan and purpose for my life… Through my trials He has helped me understand so much of who I am as a woman and how much we truly relate to one another. He whispered to my heart that we need Him and each other to live well here, and so I developed the, ‘Total Woman Pamphlet.’
I have always had a love and passion for women’s ministry. The Total Woman Pamphlet was born out of many sleepless nights. For about two years straight, beginning in 2011, the Lord would wake me up every morning at 3:00 a.m. Many nights I did not want to get up, but the Lord instructed me to get up and just start writing. He started off by giving me the scripture John 10:10b. So often we forget why Christ gave His life for us. “He came that we might have life, and have it more abundantly.” I realized that Christ is concerned about every aspect of our lives.
Many nights I would find myself just crying and writing, but I continued to write. Women go through so many things in life, and sometimes they are just too embarrassed or ashamed to talk about it- they keep things hidden within- which is no good for either the mental or physical well-being of a person. So, on September 25, 2013 at 3:20 a.m. I finished the pamphlet. My son Anthony designed the cover for me which in itself was amazing. He started out just putting a beautiful flower on the front cover and then he put the same flower on the back, and when we opened the cover it was no longer two beautiful flowers but they became one! To me, that represented wholeness and oneness. To date, we use this pamphlet in our Women’s Department sessions each time we meet. I believe the women are being blessed and God is being glorified. When the Lord leads, I also use the pamphlet as a tool to discuss Christ with people when they visit my alterations store. This short pamphlet is designed to encourage the hearts of women and help lead them gently back to the heart of Christ! If you would like to receive one, the pamphlets are free for the asking! Please just send me an email and I’d be happy to get one to you! You can reach me at: firstname.lastname@example.org and I hope to hear from you!
I pray that you too would know the healing Love of Jesus- He changed the course of my life!